drexaxmer

strong

2007-07-24T02:26:03Z

Bet you thought that i'd be broken.
Mascara streakin' down my cheek.
Devastated, out the door way;
In a daze, a state of disbelief.
I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad.
but, baby i wont satisfy your need.
i've already been there, done that.
I'll be fine, even if you leave.

Ohh i dont need you anymore;
and don't you know, that

You, were the one that made me strong;
you made me stand up on my own,
with every cruel intention, you helped me find my
independence.

yeah it's all because of you,
that i have the strength i do,
to turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy i'm thankin' you. Boy i'm thankin' you.

Thinking back on how you changed me,
everytime, you tried to put me down.
even though you really hurt me,
underneath, myself is what i found.
so take a look inside these eyes now,
and say the things you want to say to me.
cuz i've already spread my wings out;
and your the one, the one who set me free.

Ohh i dont need you anymore
Ohh and don't you know, that

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence

yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashin'
Boy im thanking you,

For all the tears i cried
for all the sacrafice
for all the drama
'cuz in the end it made me stronger
so trust me i'll be fine
baby i'll survive
without you, in my life, but i want you to know

that you
were the one that broke my heart
but i won't fall apart
no.. im so moving on
cuz babyyy

You were the one that made me strong,
you made me stand up on my own
with every cruel intention you helped me find my
independence

yeah it's all because of you
that i have the strength i do
to turn my pain to passion instead of crashing
Boy i'm thanking you, Boy i'm thankin you
(laughter)

IMPORTANT!

2007-07-23T22:42:57Z

Hey are we still having that party cause i found out that adam was grounded from the computer so yeah i can call him and find out about him and stuff o yeah today is his beeeddaaaayy and yesterdays was SAAARRRaaaahhzzz
ssooo cueewwwwllll

drexaxmer @ 2007-07-03T08:54:00

2007-07-03T16:00:00Z

sorry last post was written a while ago..anyways things have turned p..im ok with adam..even though that stupid ferris wheel thing came up grr...i still like shane and stuff..and i think that he still has my number in my phone..and i kinda still have his..blush...just got back from florida and i miss my beautiful curly hair from there...now mine is just stupid ugly barbie doll straight...and today was the first day i have ever slept in--i mean its alomst 9!! i think that that was the latest one for me...
but for the shane thing im kinda getting sad cause i just like him now as a friend but i dont think that he really cares...idk maybe if i talked to him..but i cant just call him up and say o hey yeah whats pu ummi still like you and even though were going to different schools i dont think it should really matter...but yeah.
also i am never talkin to kyle again
he is perverted....buts hes also a lot of other things...especially a good dancer...anyways im just now waking up woohoo and i think that things are getting better
O YEAH!!
im not grounded
woopwoop
reporet cards came in and i passed! 3 as(would have been four cept harjung wouldnt raise it) 2 bs and a c- but who really cares?
got in trouble for going to the mall last night hehe came in waay after curfew(aka 930) but again my dad was cool hes like i said its ok and stuff and my mom was like what? and hes like its ok i said so
and she just dropped the whole thing
hahahahaaha

yeah...

2007-07-03T15:53:33Z

cant say im heartbroken cause as people have said i dont have a heart
but i am crying
and i cant seem to stop
thx 2 all the guys who i really liked
(apples and bananas)
so now im dont with guys
and i want to feel something more
b ut i know now that i never can
guys suck
im staying away from them.

hate guys

2007-06-12T02:06:08Z

iiiii haate him

2007-05-21T01:43:03Z

you know he just cant stop making me mad at him
he continually does things to piss me off,
and then he acts all innocent like he is
the one who is really hurt? can you believe
that everyone agrees with him just because
he is precious little adam? honestly!
and now hes finally giving sarah respect!
IE acknowledging her existance,
and he was on sat. being a good friend
actually it was like old times, before
he changed himself just to make other people
proud and then on monday he told whitney what
i said!
[i said i felt a little uncomfortable with that group, and dont
really feel accepted]
AND HE TOLD THEM THAT!
also when they were talking trash on me he didnt stick up for me once!
ONLY mariah did! now hes saying that never even happened? why would
mar lie to me like that?
FRICKFRICKFRICK!

adam....grr...adam is

2007-05-09T22:52:42Z

a jackSass...
oi i hate him im not talking to him because obviously he needs his time away,.,,..,,,...or his break away from me as he calls it! im so pissed at him!
FHIM!

hi

2007-04-08T05:49:13Z

long time since i have posted but still i was bored and realized that i have not been here in a while so im like ok then i will write something to say hi...
so i saw blades of glory today i could not stop cracking up and stuff it was hilarious omg haha though there was some crude humor in it..hmm...o well...i need to get caitlin and sammy and allyz and sarah and shane to go that would be fun..i would invite brianna and ryan but bri does not like caitlin(or so a certain tigger told me) so i might not set that up like that
so yeah no drama there for me please...idk...i was thinking to have the next friday out with just allyx and sarah and cait @ the mall but then i am like well caitlin will want to bring sammy and then allyx might want to bring someone and then i want to bring shane cause i though that that would be fun but then i am still thinking about sarah..hmm...maybe she could invite adam?
speaking of the movies while i was walking to the ticket place with my sister and my grandma i saw red there and stuff and she was like looking at me then i walked right passed her with my sister and stuff and totally ignored her(o yeah she was alone to heh) so yeah that was ok then i thought that i saw someone i really dont like at the mall and who knows it could have been her but who cares? honestly? anyways im doing im with sarah right now and i just wrote like a bunch so i will talk to you all soon and i hope that at least SOMEONE calls me cause i am freaking bored out of my mind.
later late late!
taybug

hehe

2007-03-27T21:56:30Z

ok two days almost one before i leave to go on the plane with sarah
im really nervous...and cause of shane too...tell you more later!! bye!

drexaxmer @ 2007-03-22T17:06:00

2007-03-23T00:06:59Z

i dont know whats wrong with me...i feel like crying...:( whats wrong with me?

peoples...

2007-03-20T22:38:53Z

yeah people keep trying to pressure me to kiss him...but i dont want to...
at least not for a long while....especially danielle..but you know im just not comfy with that stuff....so yeah...also adam isnt talking to me idky...

adam...

2007-03-13T23:18:10Z

yeah its been getting bad with the way he has been acting
i know guys like to talk about that stuff that way but still
its pretty unnerving i mean come on! and some of the stuff he
says too! i mean honestly!!!! GROSS~
sarah would agree hehe
anyways i will post more later if you want kk?
ttyl
me

50% boyish

2007-03-11T02:46:22Z

hehe thought that that would totally describe me...
im totally hating how i look right now i am
all sunburned and crap...
i feel gross...
wondering how i got a bf...
a sweet one too...
hmph...
who knows?
i should throw a party soon...

nervous

2007-03-09T06:09:58Z

shane just emailed me and he was like can you stay afterschool for ten minutes at the sports park and im like yeah i can...
wonder what this means?
i think that he just wants to hang out you know? just to be sure i will bring julia with me...

something that____/stolen from sanriazu

2007-03-08T00:50:46Z

Something that _________ in the past couple days:

..made me laugh: i went outside and then i looked around trying to find my dog..then i looked even closer and saw that she had dug a hole that was about three feet deep...
..made me cry: All the stress that i have had lately
..made me angry: My dad saying that i could never accomplish anything ever...then my sister calling me fat and ugly...and a supposed friend saying that i would never be able to get a guy...
..really sucked: My knee is really hurting me and i cant really walk and im afraid to tell my dad that....
..annoyed the hell out of me: Adam did really annoy me...
..made me feel accomplished: I worked on my swing a lot and i made it better...i also am doing better in math...
..made me feel relieved: My journal due date was moved up a few more days which gives me more time to work on it...
..makes me anxious: Shane.....oioioioioi
..I wrote recently: uh..i wrote some poems...
..I've had to much to eat/drink of: pasta uuuggghhh
..is weird that you just did: I screamed when no one was home...as loud as i can too...
..sucks even more: I feel like i am drifting away from what is realy me..

Something that _________ throughout my life:

..I wish would change: All the bad things about me...the way i look...i wish i was shorter and thinner...and had something on my chest....
..I wish would change dramatically: Again read the end of the above question...
..I wish: I wont have to deal with any more drama...and that i had my old friends again...
..I believe: In my friends...especially sarah for always being there...
..I fear: Having to leave him because i am afraid of something big...and my first kiss...
..I hope for: Success.
..I dream: that i wont have to deal with heartbreak soon...
..is my greatest dream: To be happy.
..is my greatest failure: To become somebody other than me.
..I would do if I could start the day over: talk to more people and then just laugh a LOT more you know?

Something that always makes me laugh: i dont know...i guess it has to be something...

drexaxmer @ 2007-03-02T15:44:00

2007-03-02T23:45:14Z

second day yay my longest relationship so far(and ever) god bri and ryan have been going out for how long???

testtesttest

2007-02-26T16:05:57Z

HEY! i made a test about me!!! please take~! thx!
just click the link and answer the q's for me thx~

http://www.truefriendtest.com/friendtest/75162

omg HELP!!

2007-02-13T06:36:06Z

kelsey likes shane too...
omg
what do i do?

o yeah i also got my first a in math class too..not like that could cheer me up...
I NEED TO TALK TO MY SARAH!! WHERE IS SHEEE!!!???!?!?!?!

talkin to adam

2007-02-13T02:42:28Z

hey just bored and i am talkin to a special friend lol
and he says hi
o i also found out that people are talkin about me
and that makes me pretty mad but o well
and anyways we are prank calling jacob and this will be pretty funny lol

tired and hurt

2007-02-12T03:12:57Z

physically not emotionally that is lol
and anyways a lot happened over the weekend with the tournament..
lets just say that we had to run for thirty minutes straight
so yeah that sucked..
and my knee is hurt
i would also like to hear from my dear friend SH but idk
whats new or up with her
getting braces changed tomorrow
and tuesday possibly getting glasses
wish me luck cause this is gonna be a heck of a week...
taylor

omg!!!!

2007-02-10T01:25:58Z

today is britts party so i really couldnt do anything but OMGOMGOMG SHANE ASKED ME TO MOVIE NIGHT!!!!!!
and i had to say no :( stupid party....but allyx told me that he is thinking of something on VDAY so yeah!!
omgomgomomgomgomgomgomgomgggomgomg

just another day...well...sorta...lol

2007-02-01T04:54:45Z

hey!! so yeah i guess that it was just another normal day for me....but still i started off the morning sorta nice cause i got to do my math and stuff then it was also kewl cause then shane walked in and for about ten minutes we were working on the same problem then he was like can you umm help me with this and then im like
well...only if you promise to help me back cause i dont really get it that much
to tell you the truth it was a bit akward at first but it got better...specially after whats his name helped us....ill find it out tomorrow so yeah that might be easier...or harder seeing as there is another name to remember lol
and yeah it was cool...then the rest of the day was pretty cool cause i got to hang out with people
but to tell you the truth kiyana and kamea were really bothering me cause they were freaking out about this one aid at out school and flipping out and stuff so i got a bit short tempered after that but then i stopped before i could do anything that i would regret...then wesley was being all spaziod at the shooting so we bareley got anything done there....then i had hitting and that pretty much just set off my knee lol
anyways...i have my first day of fitness club so i am very VERY nervous seeing as i am going to be the only girl there and homan might be using me as an example or something
you know how theres a difference between being a girl and being fit? well...if you are a girl you dont really have that much endurance but if you are fit and strong of course you have that that is what you are working on there in fitness club
so yeah i cant really go all out tomorrow
cause of course i dont want to be dead at practicve
so yeah that was basically my day
o yeah and a frog is terrorizing my mom
hehe
later
<33 tay

morning~!~

2007-01-28T19:07:14Z

hello peoples! im still here so yeah thats pretty cool lol
and i am still hanging out with sarah
i am about to go on a walk with sarahbear
later! lol
oi i love you all!!!
<33333333333333333s
taylor